About Me
Hey đ, I'm Samir Thapa! [Download CV]
You know what they say? When someone asks Tell me about yourself? It almost feels like someone allowed them to sing an old song. Same lyrics with some variables in it.
Name, Profession, Location. A formality which give a sense of âWe know this personâ. Funny isnât it? Because none of this basic indentity information truly describe a person.
A person is more than just that - or is he?
Whatever it isâŠ
I find it very boring. I believe knowing a person is an art. Itâs like an open world game, you donât know a person you explore him, more you explore, more you get comfortable. Thousands of stories and choices, one leading to another. A storyline with the addition of some genes which buils personality.
You know what we learn when we play too many games? At some point we start recognizing patterns. We realize every game is just similar. It might look different from the outside, but inside itâs always some programming logic. One can play this game for many reasons. Itâs like when a hacker understands a system mostly because he is curious. A mindset which seeks for the reason behind all the visible actions. But sometimes itâs more than just that. Sometimes itâs about getting the control or it can be for fixing a vurnerability.
Most people donât play games out of love or care. Itâs always about power.
When you truly know the game itâs not very hard to kill, break, or exploit it.
Games can be revolutionary, ordinary, interesting, overrated, underrated, boring, full of shit. In fact some games are so horrible. It just needs to die ASAP.
I know, I should stop my crazy talk. Itâs time to fit myself into a frame built by society. A frame which makes it easy to distinguish between Good or Bad, Right or Wrong. Rules which give simplicity to this complex world and purpose to our lives.
So you are here to know about me?
I always make this game hard for others. As I have said before, a âhacker doesnât just exploit, he also patchesâ. The best way to patch your vurnerabilities - is to stop living in ignorance. Start being honest with yourself. Sadly, today our society is filled with fake people. No one is truly real. Our emotions like guilt, ego, anger, fear always stops us from looking at ourselves. We all lost touch with honesty the moment we lost our innocence.
I took red pill in life and I feel bad because I know how miserable you get with this. When I imagine my life, I always see myself sitting in a dark room all night. Doing some shit on my computer while being connected to this crazy technology, the Internet. Sometimes when I turn off my computer, I realize âI am completely aloneâ. I lead myself into this. Itâs a choice. I might feel bad, but I never regret it. I always have mixed opinions, it helps me make my game tough. I look things with different perspective, but itâs hard, so I end up like most people, using my perspective in a way which helps my agenda or emotions. Perception is a great game. When you master it you can justify all action in a way which makes sense. I try my best to look for the cause rather than the action or opinion. I want to be a good person, but this world doesnât allow it. I hate most people and despise weakness, but I also pity occasionally. I love good humor and always try to make clever jokes. It helps me enjoy my life. Yes, I am full of hate and darkness. I am full of negativity. But someone has to be. If I am reacting to something, itâs just me trying to have fun out of good mood. Because deep down inside, I never give a fuck about things I canât control or change. I just look. Sometimes I wonder, Who do I hate more? Powerful people or weak people? I always try to never look for validations from the others. I believe in skills, talent, and knowledge. The only true way to make this world a better place is by doing what you love. I always look for what drives a person every day. Money, Greed, Love, Fear, Compulsion, Passion. Some drives are good, some are bad. I believe in true freedom. Freedom of mind. I donât want to be ordinary, I want to make a difference, be great. But at what cost?
Name one hero, who was happy?